I used to be drinking myself drunk in the agency on Fridays, party till dawn on Saturdays and nursing the hangover on most Sundays. Now I can't wait to get out of the agency as early as possible so that I can get to hold Keira perhaps one hour earlier.
And of course, the working mother comes with a baggage of regrets.
Luckily, Keira mastered her first flip at home - she was darn happy to do so! Been trying so for the nth time since she was about 8 weeks.
Shortly after, she begins to laugh out loud (literally). It's funny to see my daughter week after week looking different after 5 days.
Babies do pick up things fast. Last week she began "crawling" with her backside high up, as she tries to wriggle her way with her
She had her first taste of food other than milk. I think I bought the wrong bottled food - green apple puree. Her face scringed so badly that mom and I burst out laughing... then I learnt from Gloria that I should start her on rice cereal first!
Well, not that new tastes make much of a difference to her, since she puts every single thing she touches into her mouth.
She started "boo, boo...", spitting out her saliva and got her first scolding from mommy. :(
It's been only a month away from her and she grew so much. Sometimes, I feel so upset that I missed out so much. There are times where I knew I could do so much more for her if I'm there but I couldn't? I feel so useless at times.
Sigh.
Things are starting to get a little messy at home. In all sense of the word. Not just because of Keira starting her rice cereal, but for the family well being of my other sibling.
History repeat itself on the later generation. Mom asked if this is hereditary, hah. Not funny...
I just want the respected elder sibling back. I don't know exactly what happened and triggered this but I'm very sure regret is the last word you want to say after you regain your conscious.
Mom felt terribly ill after hearing it, sis went berserk and anorexic, the last we want is for grandma to know.
Come back bro.
Sigh.
Nowadays, most conversation starters are on babies and pregnancy. It seems to be the only thing people could say/interested in.
It doesn't help that work is picking up and I've been staying in the office till late prohibiting most of my after work activities. So much for a reasonable portfolio, perhaps it's my inefficien these days. I do need a life besides work and baby you know.
As much as I hate some people, I still love the culture here. Afterall, I've been here for 4 years. I'm comfortable. Perhaps too comfortable.
Maybe a change in all aspect could be good.
Sigh.
Some much ranting for the past one month. Not a good sign. Isn't the rabbit year supposed to be a better year?
Where's the money?
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