Breastfeeding Woes

I knew I need to breastfeed Keira ever since I made the decision to keep her. I have been hearing from many that breastfeeding is not easy. Indeed, it's a painful experience. From soreness to cracked and bleeding nipples, no wonder many women gave up breastfeeding. I was lucky I managed to get over the initial period. Now it is extremely satisfying. Despite many questions and doubts from the older folks who do not understand the importance of breastfeeding, I continued to breastfeed till now.

The thought of weaning Keira makes me sad and guilty. I knew I had to wean her off before I start work. I must agree that breastfeeding could be, at times, a chore. You have to watch what you eat, what time you will be out till, if there's nursing room at whatever I go and if she has enough to last her till I'm home. Often, my outings are cut short due to this.

I salute those who managed to perserve all this and breastfeed their baby exclusively for the first 6 months, which is the recommendation from WHO. Sadly, I don't think I am able to do it because I'll be back at work soon and I won't be able to express enough breastmilk to last her each day when I put her with the MIL.

The weaning process is not an easy one either, especially when you have to be extra careful with you rock hard bosom. I find comfort when Keira still prefers to feed directly from my breast and the satisfaction on her face when she's fed. Really, breastfeeding could foster bonding between mother and child. Now I understand when sis said that it is a touching moment when Orlando latched on.

I'm having mixed feelings now because for the comfort and easiness myself, I have chosen to stop breastfeeding but I'm already missing feeling her warm breath on me. Ultimately, I just want to be happy and healthy, safe and sound.